John jowns
New Member
Hello everybody. Although you will address me as john, that is not my name.
I am teenager who has a crush on a girl (name disclosed) and as far as I can tell, she's has neutral feelings towards me.
I respect that, in not going to try and show her she should choose me over other guys she knows.
Both her family and my family are very close, my parents have known her parents before they were married.
Both she and I have the same religion (Christian) as do are parents, I'm two year older then her, she perfect in every way-and so on.
Why am I posting here? Well.
After fully meeting her near two years back (didn't remember her as a little kid) I formed a crush on her. I would find ways during the night to communicate with her via skype, or anything that I could.
After awhile, we didn't message each other as much, until we met again for a get together. Days after, I would dream about her. It wasn't completely about her persay, but she was there, and my heart pumped with excitement of her presence. Note, none of these dreams were lust driven. I would not allow myself to dream like that.
Last night, I dreamt she was here, and that we were having a get together with out families. She stayed over, and then left. When I awoke, my heart was heavy-very heavy. It was like nothing I had ever felt before. I was sad, emotional, and just blah the rest of the morning.
I've spoken to my friends about this crush, and they've said, and I agree, "If God wants you two to be together, then it will happen on his watch, not yours." Or something along these lines.
I've accepted the fact that God is in control of all of this, but why torment me with these dreams? I've asked that he removed her from my mind, and he does. Then we meet again-and all I can see is her beauty, her family, how she smiles and her kindness. And then the dreams start up again.
So what would you guys say?
Any, and all comments would be appreciated.
I am teenager who has a crush on a girl (name disclosed) and as far as I can tell, she's has neutral feelings towards me.
I respect that, in not going to try and show her she should choose me over other guys she knows.
Both her family and my family are very close, my parents have known her parents before they were married.
Both she and I have the same religion (Christian) as do are parents, I'm two year older then her, she perfect in every way-and so on.
Why am I posting here? Well.
After fully meeting her near two years back (didn't remember her as a little kid) I formed a crush on her. I would find ways during the night to communicate with her via skype, or anything that I could.
After awhile, we didn't message each other as much, until we met again for a get together. Days after, I would dream about her. It wasn't completely about her persay, but she was there, and my heart pumped with excitement of her presence. Note, none of these dreams were lust driven. I would not allow myself to dream like that.
Last night, I dreamt she was here, and that we were having a get together with out families. She stayed over, and then left. When I awoke, my heart was heavy-very heavy. It was like nothing I had ever felt before. I was sad, emotional, and just blah the rest of the morning.
I've spoken to my friends about this crush, and they've said, and I agree, "If God wants you two to be together, then it will happen on his watch, not yours." Or something along these lines.
I've accepted the fact that God is in control of all of this, but why torment me with these dreams? I've asked that he removed her from my mind, and he does. Then we meet again-and all I can see is her beauty, her family, how she smiles and her kindness. And then the dreams start up again.
So what would you guys say?
Any, and all comments would be appreciated.